Ever since I got married and had a baby, my life and priorities seem to have been split down the middle. Never before has anything meant as much to me as music always has. Then, all of a sudden, I turned a certain page and a completely new chapter began. Now, I put so much energy into being a good wife and mother, I struggle to find time and energy leftover for creating music.
I suspect that I will gain some of my musical momentum back once Lola is in school and out of my hair a little bit. But, now I AM EXPECTING A SECOND CHILD - A BOY! We'd always planned on having two children and I've never imagined my life as a childless woman. So, everything is as it should be. It's just that when I was imagining this life, I never realized how incredibly deep the sacrifice of having children could be. I wouldn't trade it. I've tried to fight it, recording for a few hours, here and there, with months passing between sessions.
So, there it is, the BIG NEWS - I am pregnant again. For those of you who are wondering, I will be on maternity leave for most of February and March. I am also writing to officially admit to myself and you something that I have tried to avoid. I am a mother first. If my next album is to be created as an independent artist, like the last one, and I want it to be a quality product...I must put the project on hold until I have the proper time, money, and energy that my songs deserve. But, for now, I must put these three things towards my growing family.
The desire to write, record and share my songs is one that burns like the sun. I have no worries that I won't continue on passion's path. I've just finally recognized the true meaning of the lyric "to everything there is a season". It is my season to start a family. It is a very special time in anyone's life. I am grateful that I get to experience this incredible beauty. I look forward to putting this beauty to music one day...in the future, when the season is right.
As always, thanks for reading. I truly appreciate your time and value your opinion. I hope you can be patient, as I am trying to be. Keep on coming out to support me and other local artists, and I promise, I will have another album for you one glorious day!