Last time I wrote, I'd just auditioned for The Voice. I've pondered the meaning of it all many times since then, further searching for the rawest truth within myself, in order to answer some of the questions about the direction in which I'm headed.
Ever since I got married and had a baby, my life and priorities seem to have been split down the middle. Never before has anything meant as much to me as music always has. Then, all of a sudden, I turned a certain page and a completely new chapter began. Now, I put so much energy into being a good wife and mother, I struggle to find time and energy leftover for creating music.
I suspect that I will gain some of my musical momentum back once Lola is in school and out of my hair a little bit. But, now I AM EXPECTING A SECOND CHILD - A BOY! We'd always planned on having two children and I've never imagined my life as a childless woman. So, everything is as it should be. It's just that when I was imagining this life, I never realized how incredibly deep the sacrifice of having children could be. I wouldn't trade it. I've tried to fight it, recording for a few hours, here and there, with months passing between sessions.
So, there it is, the BIG NEWS - I am pregnant again. For those of you who are wondering, I will be on maternity leave for most of February and March. I am also writing to officially admit to myself and you something that I have tried to avoid. I am a mother first. If my next album is to be created as an independent artist, like the last one, and I want it to be a quality product...I must put the project on hold until I have the proper time, money, and energy that my songs deserve. But, for now, I must put these three things towards my growing family.
The desire to write, record and share my songs is one that burns like the sun. I have no worries that I won't continue on passion's path. I've just finally recognized the true meaning of the lyric "to everything there is a season". It is my season to start a family. It is a very special time in anyone's life. I am grateful that I get to experience this incredible beauty. I look forward to putting this beauty to music one day...in the future, when the season is right.
As always, thanks for reading. I truly appreciate your time and value your opinion. I hope you can be patient, as I am trying to be. Keep on coming out to support me and other local artists, and I promise, I will have another album for you one glorious day!
Ever since I got married and had a baby, my life and priorities seem to have been split down the middle. Never before has anything meant as much to me as music always has. Then, all of a sudden, I turned a certain page and a completely new chapter began. Now, I put so much energy into being a good wife and mother, I struggle to find time and energy leftover for creating music.
I suspect that I will gain some of my musical momentum back once Lola is in school and out of my hair a little bit. But, now I AM EXPECTING A SECOND CHILD - A BOY! We'd always planned on having two children and I've never imagined my life as a childless woman. So, everything is as it should be. It's just that when I was imagining this life, I never realized how incredibly deep the sacrifice of having children could be. I wouldn't trade it. I've tried to fight it, recording for a few hours, here and there, with months passing between sessions.
So, there it is, the BIG NEWS - I am pregnant again. For those of you who are wondering, I will be on maternity leave for most of February and March. I am also writing to officially admit to myself and you something that I have tried to avoid. I am a mother first. If my next album is to be created as an independent artist, like the last one, and I want it to be a quality product...I must put the project on hold until I have the proper time, money, and energy that my songs deserve. But, for now, I must put these three things towards my growing family.
The desire to write, record and share my songs is one that burns like the sun. I have no worries that I won't continue on passion's path. I've just finally recognized the true meaning of the lyric "to everything there is a season". It is my season to start a family. It is a very special time in anyone's life. I am grateful that I get to experience this incredible beauty. I look forward to putting this beauty to music one day...in the future, when the season is right.
As always, thanks for reading. I truly appreciate your time and value your opinion. I hope you can be patient, as I am trying to be. Keep on coming out to support me and other local artists, and I promise, I will have another album for you one glorious day!
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